i drove for miles and miles and wound up at your door

its funny how you can be in such a good mood and just because of a trivial matter, it changes everything just like that. for the first time in many months, i cried in public. i had to walk throughout the whole day looking at the ground. even when ordering my drinks i had to avoid eye contact with the counter. and when i entered the toilet i almost died looking at how red my eyes were.

and it seems that i am obviously upset and angry at something but i don't know what it is. on the train ride home, i was listening to nymphetamine and started thinking of ways to disfigure a person. strange thing was, i imagined that person i was disfiguring but i couldn't see her face clearly and neither did i know her. all i know is it was a girl. come to think of it, i have a vivid imagination and a good way of making someone seem unrecognizable.

for the whole day i didn't have any appetite and seeing food just made me sick and have a woozy feeling in my stomach. i feel sick now after eating.

i am not looking forward to school tomorrow. lets pray i'll be in a good mood.

                                        

                                                                                  

Ainslee

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