i think i shld take this time to thank grace. thank you for listening to me rant to you ytd. and to tell you the truth, im glad that i was very honest and frank with you. you really helped me get all my problems outta me. and i agree that they are not mature! trust me when you need a listening ear ill be there. its a pity yr not in crescent anymore. and it really touched me when you said you were proud that i was your angel. i almost cried(: ok the smiley so shld not be there but heck.

the dreams have been sweet as well as traumatising. i guess im happy to see that you in my dreams but the feeling when i wake up is indescribable. its a mixure of loss, jealousy and misery. all the three worst feelings mashed into one. these feelings clog up my heart for a really long time. when will these dreams end? i want it to end but at the same time i dont. i contradict myself a lot and im aware of that. if these dreams disappear where else can i be close to you? but if they continue i dont know how much longer i can take the fact that your not with me. im afraid i'll do smth that i will regret and i dont want to reach that extent. i really dont. help me.

Lost Without You
I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out
I thought I had all the answers never giving in

But baby since you've gone
I admit that I was wrong
All I know is
I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you
I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you

How my ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind
Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no I'm not too proud to say

All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you
I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you

If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face
Oh

All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you
I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do
I'm lost without you I keep trying to find my way but all I know is
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day all I find is
I'm lost without your love
All I know is I’m lost without you
I'm lost without you

                                        

                                                                                  

Ainslee

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